Can my life take a direction and just go with it?

“I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be.” Douglas Adams

It has been quite some time since I have placed my thoughts down in this fashion, so this could be quite long, but it is late and I need some sleep. The real reason for me writing this is exactly why I picked the quote I did, now did I pick the quote or did the quote pick me?(doesn't matter if your a pragmatist) Why is it that my life throws me the curve balls it does, I am not complaining but at the same time I am pissed that it is doing this to me. I have been trying to get my whole life together, and it is for the most part, my social life which should be last on the list is what is causing the trouble, which causes me to lapse in care for the rest of it. Now what makes it crazy is that I have all the friends in the world, but still have this sense of incompleteness, as if there is someone out there I need and vice versa. I have heard a lot of things from a lot of people about the subject and what I should do and for the most part it is positive I suppose, but still don't feel I can act upon it. I think it comes down to me being too smart for my own damn good, I over think things other than knowing what to do and just doing it, at least it would end it either way and I would know how to move from there. The thing is, that would still be unsatisfactory because I know that I would rather keep up what is going on now and keep myself in the state that I am in. I suppose that is what makes me human and shows I am a finite being. I can't just make the decision because of the limited knowledge of all things, and especially on this topic it gnaws at my mind. But I guess that is all I can do for now, I have a feeling though that this will work itself out very soon, and for the better. Once again I will take my leave because I have a ton of work for my classes tomorrow before I go to have fun tomorrow.

Until we meet again:
-Benz